little diva

Monday morning blues.....

It’s an emotional morning for me again, Amira staying with nenek while my hubby off for his duty. Today is the first day, and I wish I could be there for mira all the time, but I have a responsibility towards my job….cari rezeki…;p
I just call my mum and ask about amira’s condition. Everything is ok, it’s just that she refuse to sleep. Hopefully amira understand with my situation. She might be a little baby but I believe she is strong enough to face this world…(just like me maybe..hihi..;p)


I wish I can give her the whole world,
Spend all of my time with her
Full her life with happiness
I hate to see her being hurt
I hate to see tears in her eyes
I love to see smiles on her face

But this is life
I can’t dedicate all my time for her
She needs time of her own
Make her own decision
Feeling hurt and cry sometimes
Experience this life
So that she will stand back once she falls down

Therefore I wrote this poem
So that she knows
This is life, together we learns everyday
Because I never knew what's the best for you or me
All I knew is I love you with all of my heart
And hope you’ll do the same for me

Ya Allah,
Do give me guidance
Give us the light so we can follow the right route
In order to give the best for my little girl
So we can live this life
Thank you Ya Allah…

I'tiraf

Wahai Tuhan ku tak layak ke syurga Mu
Namun tak pula aku sanggup ke neraka Mu

Ampunkan dosa ku terimalah taubat ku
Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Pengampun dosa-dosa besar

Ila hilis tu lilfirdausi ahla
Wala aqwa alnnaril jahim
Fahabblitau batau wafir zunubi
Fainnakarob firul zanbi azim

Dosa-dosaku bagaikan pepasir di pantai
Dengan rahmat Mu ampunkan daku Oh Tuhan ku

Wahai Tuhan selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala kejahatan dan kecelakaan

Kami takut kami harap kepada Mu
Suburkanlah cinta kami kepada Mu

Akulah hamba yang mengharap belas dari Mu

Amira and mummy

My princess

Being a mum

When I looked into your eyes
you gave me hope
to view tomorrow without fear.
You touched my heart
with a bond that will never be broken.
When I held you
your smile lit up the room.
When you were born
my life changed.
Your dreams became my hopes.
Your tears became my pain.
Your worries became my concerns.
My love for you has no bounds
unconditional, and pure.
I love you now,
more then I ever have.
When you were born
I held your hand in mine,
from that point on
you held my heart

Alhamdulillah…my hubby safely arrived at KLIA at 6.10 p.m yesterday. I fetch him up and stay for another night at Ampang. So today I’m gonna do my routine, rushing back to Bkt Jalil, looking for the best spot to park my car, do my daily chores…hihi
Today my sis came back, her school has to be closed for a week due to H1N1 case. I bet she must be excited. Miss her too…

I just got info that my hubby have to stay for another day, still couldn’t get his passport…
I’m so not in a mood, i really want to go home. I don’t understand, but for past few days I really feel like I miss my home so much…Even though life would be much easier staying with parents…don’t have to do laundry, cook etc..but I miss those time where I rush going back to my home, cook for dinner wash cloths, watching tv with amira n my hubby, surfing internet.
So today will be another day….I need a break.

27072009

Amira have difficulties to sleep last night, maybe the flu makes her feel uneasy….almost every hour she wakes up and as usual I will soothe her back to sleep…
My hubby just arrived at Bintulu yesterday and now still stuck in there waiting for clearance from Immigration…hope everything went well. It’s been a month my hubby away for his project at Sarawak offshore and I miss my home so much. Ops.. of course I miss my hubby more than everything. Since we have Amira, I have to stay either at Shah Alam (my parent’s place) or Ampang (my in law’s place) each time my hubby go offshore…You know…The best place will always be our own home.

Amira is growing up so fast.. She looks identical to her daddy; her skin is so fair and so chubby. I really love to see her movement while she sleeping…so cute. Sometimes I can hear her whispering something in her sleep…I wonder how lucky she is, born in a good environment, where everybody cares so much about her…Being the first grandchild is an advantage for her though sometimes give a pressure to me. Don’t be misunderstood…it is not amira to be blame..but yea.. frankly said, it is not easy to fulfill everyone expectation…I’m just a little new mum, I always want to give the best to my baby but sometimes it seems like I didn’t get the chance to do it with my own way…But still I must be grateful because my family is there to help. So elly just think positive okey..;p

….Praying so that my husband manages to come home today, so we can be together as a family again…

Heal the world

There's A Place In Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways To Get There
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Little Space..Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place, For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying If You Care Enough
For The Living Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong It Only Cares For
Joyful Giving
If We Try
We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And
Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For
Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

hey there..!!! wanna share my little princess picture with all the readers.

20072009

Dear readers,

This is my first posting in my blog...hope i can share lots of stuff in this blog.