Selamat Datang 2012

Alhamdulillah....still going strong di akhir atau penghujung 2011. Terima kasih 2011 for the challenges throughout this years...

2011, banyak meninggalkan kenangan...bukan pahit tapi pengalaman hidup yg sgt beharga.

- Amira reach 2 years old in 2011...admitted to hospital due to rota virus somewhere in July 2011 and again in Oct 2011 viral infection. Alhamdulillah, everything turn up to be good after few days in hospital...Alhamdulillah is the only words that i can say to Allah yg mengubati sakit amira. She's now a big girl...full of fantasy and dreams...just hope she choose the right path of her life. Mimi and Dada will always love and pray for your health and hapiness.

- Hubby...tahun ni byk sgt offshore, it's been a hectic year for him...ksian kite..Ramadhan and Syawal pun x dpt celebrate sama-sama. But after all the sacrifices..Alhamdulillah, Allah makbulkan doa' kami..Rizal akhir nye dapat kerja baru and yes work with Petronas carigali...Bersyukur sgt, rezeki anak2...dan mungkin akan kurang sikit offshore even still have to go...tapi xpelah...Alhamdulillah......

- Study...Semester ketiga ini bermula dgn sgt okey...tapi berakhir dgn sgt penat dan x larat...Assigment yg sgt memerlukan committment, test yg sgt susah,project thesis..tinggal nk tunggu fnal 9,10 and 12 Januari nanti. But afterall, thanks to all my friends yg sama-sama struggle di UPM byk sgt tolong elly dlm assg dll....Alhamdulillah, susah and penat macam mane pun, Allah masih beri kekuatan utk sy teruskan...

-Kerja...Semua ok, byk cabaran and politics..but at the endof the day sy jugak yg kena perah otak nk settlekan problem. Anyway thaks jugak kepada my team at MAHB..tanpa anda pun sy x boleh bekerja jugak.... Sakit hati kt beberapa incident atau issue yg mana aku jadi mangsa keadaan...tp just go with the flow jer lah...Alhamdulillah lagi..in August I get upgrading from gred 20 to 21...get 10% increment. Alhamdulillah...rezeki anak2 la jugak...;) so work till you drop, amanah Allah tetap aku jalankan sebaik yg aku mampu...cuma harap dapat kerja baru in 2012...bkn ape, I'm in a comfort zone now...i have to get a new challenge..nanti jadi beku on my current seat.

Family- Iwan engaged in November 2011...next year beradik iparlah aku...I pray for his happiness and hope the best for him. Mama, abah and Neng..thanks sebab byk tolong elly this year...tolong jagakan mira disaat2 diperlukan...really appreciate that. For my family, no matter what happen...my love is with you all...

Myself....in 2011, mmg byk dugaan...ape yg jadi di tempat kerja, di upm..as mentioned earlier.....Cabaran terbesar adalah utk mendidik Amira, sgt tidak mudah menjaga dan mendidik anak...aku mmg sgt kerdil dan rasenye byk sgt lg perlu aku perbetulkan...Hanya aku pohon agar Allah dapat guide my to the right path...dan Amira akan jadi anak yg solehah. In 2011 juga saya kena chicken pox..dah tua-tua pulak dpt chicken pox. After that miscarriage, huhu...hadapi tanpa my hubby plak tu...but Alhamdulillah i still have family yg sgt byk support and membantu...

Anyway...at the end of 2011 i learn something valuable which has open my heart and eyes...iaitu 'Setiap ujian dari Allah, mesti akan mendapat ganjaran setimpal diakhirnya...jgnlah terlalu byk merungut..akan malu sendiri bila Allah tunjukkan balasannya nnt'.

2012 adalah tahun untuk menghabiskan study, menambah anak dan menyumbang....menyumbang macam mana aku pun x tau lagi..tp niat dah ade dalam hati..harap Allah suluhkan jalan itu buat ku..tetapkan hati in agar bila sampai masanya aku tidak merubah fikiran dan hati lagi...

i will end this writting in 2011 with Alhamdulillah....

Nak nanges!!!!

This is a story that i want to remember throughout my life...therefore i write it in my dear blog. Last Sunday after Ombak Rindu session we went to my PIL place to fetch our beloved daughter Amira qaireena and we plan to go home after Maghrib sbb ade MU match on 8 pm.

Amira wanted tutti frutti and yes, we stopped at Axxis to buy dinner and also tutti fruiti for mira...while my hubby queue kt KFC aku jln2 dgn Mira..and suddently i saw fake Le Pliage Longchamp tergantung kt dlm one of the shops dlm axxis tu...aku mmg dh lame suke tgk Le Pliage Longchamp ni...cuma malas la nk tgk kt Longchamp sbb dah tau x de budget nk beli...tetiba terjumpe yg fake and the price is just RM25 jer...tp cash dlm wallet x ckp pun Rm25 sbbmmg x withdraw duit lg...

So g pinjam RM10 dr mr Hubby sbb nk beli fake longchamp...;) so dgn excitednye (w'pun fake) aku trs transfer brg2 dr existing handbag to my fake Le Pliage...bwk g ofis and kelas...siap ade yg tegur mase kt kelas Dr Sulis.."wa Longchamp ye..kak zawiyah pun ade...'kate one of my clssmate...

habis kelas around 9.00 p.m and sampai rmh tgk mira tdo...so trs rileks jp... 'Hubby tanye mcm mane your new handbag?'...aku pun kate 'ok, nk collect kaler lain la..;)'

Then, my hubby msk bilik teman mira tdo, and aku mule melipat baju...then i found a huge Longchamp paper bag inside the wardrobe...waw!!! and as i open the paper bag, there is an original red Le Pliage inside the dusk bag...I'm speechless.

Waw....I'm so happy that my hubby bought me an Ori Le pliage, sgt x sangka... we'll now Le Pliage is my new baby...sorry for my 'Never Full' sbb i syg Le Pliage bebih sikit dari you...

hihi...thanks dada for the suprise, it's the thought that count..bkn sbb harga tau...but i really appreciate that. Thank you.

Can you Spot the difference between the fake and the authentic ??

Ombak Rindu...

Yup...finally my hubby and me, managed to watched Ombak rindu. Thanks to Mummy because tolong jagakan Mira sekejap, and yes..as what people around the world...ehemmmm around Malaysia has commented, the movie was so damn best glerrr....TQ En Rizal sbb fulfill my wish and I'm really in love with Ombak Rindu and you...hihi..;)

it's December already !!!!

Today is 1st December 2011...too much things to do and too little time left....

i'm tired...

MiRa n anGry biRds

Sangat excited about angry birds and refused to change her shirt...LOL...

She was crying as i refused to buy her an angry birds ipad cover...

So happy with her first angry bird...

Oh eM Gee!!!!

I'm still at abah's house..as rizal masih di Malampaya....payah betullll....Last night, I was in the kitchen preparing susu for mira...I left Mira alone kt tinggkat atas . Mama n abah went out, beraye rumah neighbour...

Guess what...I found this bile I naik atas.....

p/s: she's using my lipstick as eye shadow

1 Syawal 2011

Nur...oh Nur..

Lewat ini ku rasakan
Kasih kian ku dambakan
Resah hati yang ku pendam
Pada takdir dan harapan

Detik waktu dan suratan
Siapa tahu ketentuan
Ku mencari cahayanya
Dalam bayang kegelapan

Nur kasih
Nur kasih

Nasib hidup dan pilihan
Lain hukum setiap insan
Mengharapkan perjalanan
Dalam maya kesamaran

Nur kasih
Nur kasih

Aku kembali kerana masih
Mencari yang hakiki
Sinar pasti
Janji suci yang abadi

Ooo kasih
Nur kasih
Oh nur kasih
Nur kasih

Aku kembali kerana
Masih mencari yang hakiki
Sinar pasti
Janji suci yang abadi

Nur nur ya nur kasih
Nur ya nur kasih
Nur nur kasih
Nur kasih

bergembiralah di hari raya...

Count down...6 hari lagi Syawal 2012 akan menjelma....Hari yg dianugerahkan oleh Allah untuk disambut oleh semua umat Islam atas kejayaan kita menyempurnakan Ramadhan...

Sempurnakah Ramadhan aku untuk tahun ni????

Sesungguhnya aku mmg sangat lemah dan hina disisi Allah, aku mengaku bayak lagi kecacatan dalam amalan aku menempuhi Ramadhan.

tahun ni, mcm last year jugak...aku sambut Ramadhan di rumah mama...penuh dugaan juga Ramadhan thn ni....mungkin hukuman atas dosa2 aku selama ini...

Hari ni, 23 Ramadhan..aku masih tercari2 diri aku.... aku betul2 hilang kali ni.

Aku tak tahu lagi ape yg aku cari....

dgn saper hendak ku ceritakan....

Aku mmg dah biase tinggal sorang2, since kawin..tp alhamdulillah bila mira ade..susah senang aku ni dpt jugak aku share dgn die...walaupun mira mungkin x faham..tp sekurang2nya aku ade kwn ms sunyi...
Tp sejak aku kene chicken pox, aku rase btul2 sunyi...aku x tau knape dgn tiba2 communication aku ngn rizal tetibe down.
org x puas hati aku post status kt fb ttg aku nye expression...habis kpd sape lah lg aku nk bercerita.
maybe i being too emotional, but i just can't help myself...i'm just human being. Seb baik ade blog ni...hrp xde sape bace..aku cume nk luahkan isi hati jer, perkara yg mungkin akan menguris hati org lain. Aku bkn nk protes, xd ape pun aku hrpkan dr tulisan ni...sekadar mencurahkan kesunyian aku jer...
Dulu ms belajar aku ade ramai kwn, maksud aku kwn yg sudi mendengar kisah sedih au,kt U aku ade Qilah...Qilah lah yg plg faham aku, aku mmg syg die tp sekarang masing2 dah ade family, x kan aku nk put burden kt die lg...
aku cuma nk ade org faham

Cerita bersambung...

Lps jumpe doktor, doktor pun sahkan aku kene chicken pox...fine aku blk rmh dlm keadaan kelaparan sbb x sempat nk mkn pun dr tgh hari tadi... Trs ambik beras buat bubur since secara rasminye aku dah kena berpantang...lps solat asr, mkn n mkn ubat... Rizal pun blk x lame lps tu.... Now how about mira??? Mira blum kena chicken pox lg, tp die sdh pun diberi imunisasi ttg chicken pox.. Tp since aku pun x larat n semua org rase lbh baik mira stay ampang aku pun ok jer... Asal semua bahagia, semua gumbira... Tp lps 2 hari aku sengsorang kt rmh...sebagai seorg ibu, x salahlah aku terasa amat rindu pd mira... Tgk toys die jer aku blh terbyg die tgh main...bile rmh ni sunyi.. Terasa rindu sgt kt die. Bkn salah sape2 pun, cuma naluri aku ni buat aku terasa sunyi sangat dan rindu sgt kt mira... Tp aku x tau mcm mane nk expressikan ape aku rase. Mungkin cr aku salah tp niat aku cuma nk sampaikan betape aku rindu n nak mira ade dgn aku.... Dan disebabkan itu ramailah yg berkecik hati dgn aku... Dah la aku sakit, x dpt jumpe mira, org slah faham lagi...
Kesakitan aku ni ujian dari Allah, ape pun yg berlaku datang dari Allah... Aku ni hambanye shj...aku x penah mintak ape2 dari sape2... Kdg2 utk menjaga hati org, aku x penah tannya ape yg aku nk dalam hidup ni...Aku ikut jer, tp kdg2 itu pun masih x ckp lagi... Mungkin aku yg x faham dan perlu belajar lagi...

It's not easy to be me!!

Just came back from outstation, i've to give lecture on pavement for sarawak n sabah region... Been a way about 5 days, lucky my hubby is around so mira x la sorang sgt. They stayed with my PIL since sunday and i'm back on thursday night. (26-30 june 2011). Masuk office on the 4rd of july...tonnes of work on my table and the email in my in box is so freaking me out. Have to attend DCA certification audit for civil dicipline...layan jer lah kerenah new auditor yg asik nk compare our SOP dgn Miri's SOP...lantak diela...dpt nc pun aku dh x kesah..tp aku rs something is not right with me... Rs cm sakit2 bdn, dahaga..., cm nk demam...rizal plak maybe kene naik kapal so aku ni dlm standby mode utk pindah rmh abah... Tp ape pun x ready lg. Lately mira pulak asik tdo lambat, before 3 pg tu mmg bertuahlah klau die dpt tdo...
Last day of audit, aku rs demam dah melanda...tp aku mkn panadol jer sbb mmg xde mase nk g klinik. On the 7th july kami ade icc competition, aku mmg x sempat nk contribute pape utk this competition... Tp aku one of the team member... Yelah lps outstation audit pulak, seb baik closing pg so ptg hari rabu tu aku tlg la ida ape yg patut....
Hari ni, demam lg tp demi team comitment aku kena la g jugak competition ni dgn bergantung pd panadol, the best pary was last night mira tdo around 4+ in the morning so i'm really lack of sleep. Hbs presentation aku rase lembik blk, besandar je kt kursi dlm auditorium hq... Then i realized that dah ade few spot of chicken pox on my face... Minta ida tgkkan then die pun kate that's chicken pox. Call my hubby about this and yes once again he ask me to go to the clinic. I should be at hq until 4 but i lari blk office prepare some handing over work to my TEs cause i might be on mc for a quite sometimes. Ingat sempat singgah klinik, tp x dapat... Dlm kul 3 ida dah panggil blk hq... Ngn x sembahyang lg aku g hq. Tgk result blom announce aku g la solat jap....then selangkah aku masuk surau tu, seluruh badan menggigil, semua sendi aku sakit... X mampu nk solat berdiri...then lps solat mkn panadol lg 2 biji, rs betterla sikit. Lps diorg announce group aku yg hanye dpt saguhhati tu, aku pun blah nk cr klinic kt area bkt jalil. On the blk, as expected... The jam was like crazy ni semua pasal perhimpunan bersih yg menyusahkan org. Aku pun sempat cilok jln jauh sikit tp xde road block...then sampai jugak akhirnye aku di klinik di esplanade bkt jalil... To be continue...

it's been a while...

Dear my blog, it's been a while since my last post. Been bzzz with werk,family,study and other things...
finally rizal and myself decided to buy a house...;) at Jalil Damai itself, just 1 level down from our crib rite now. Eventhough it's a second hand house, I hope we made the right step to get this house.
I have to make some arrangement on the deposits etc by myself as my hubby is 'leaving on the boat' hihi....hopefully everything went well.
Mr Chong (the property agent)...pls do not fooling around heh!!!

Y.O.U.!.!.!

Elly...Berhentilah mengharapkan sesuatu balasan untuk setiap ape yg dilakukann...buat dgn ikhlas then biar Allah saje yg membalasnya...kalau terus berharap begini...aku akan terus kecewa dan kecewa...;(

D.e.w.A.s.a - L.o.n.e.l.i.N.e.S.s

Semakin kita dewasa, semakin kita keseorangan kot...

Apa ada dengan PMS (performance mgmt system)

Haha HPM 2010 dah selesai tadi, sehari ni aku hbs kan dgn mengedit PMS yg aku dah prepare berminggu yg lalu...what a waste of my time????
Then, the funny part is that the points or marks is so plastic. I just don't believe in such thing that we call KPi, HPM,PMS or what so ever....it's just so fake and full of manipulation. It’s just so unfair for some people...
People out there, just remember one thing...PMS ke HPM ke KPI ke...ni semua kt dunia je, kita bkn hidup untuk selamanya...sabajelah.

My little amira turns 2 Years

My homemade chocolate for Birthday girl..


My little Amira will turns to 2 years old this coming 30th January 2011. Alhamdulillah, Thank you Allah s.w.t for the gift you gave to me... Really hope Amira will growing up as a good and lovely girl...Ya’Allah, please protect my little girl wherever she is, hope she will turns to be a girl with a good akhlak, brilliant and healthy. Mimi love mira so much..Happy birthday my little girl..;)

F.A.I.T.H

Faith is a Big word but recently I lost this BIG word...too many things happen in my career life and make this BIG word go far away from me.....F.A.I.T.H please come back to me...!!!!!

Back to SchooL...

haishhhh....it's back to school. A new begining of the year. All the best elly....;)

"My Wish"

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big