Aku mmg dah biase tinggal sorang2, since kawin..tp alhamdulillah bila mira ade..susah senang aku ni dpt jugak aku share dgn die...walaupun mira mungkin x faham..tp sekurang2nya aku ade kwn ms sunyi...
Tp sejak aku kene chicken pox, aku rase btul2 sunyi...aku x tau knape dgn tiba2 communication aku ngn rizal tetibe down.
org x puas hati aku post status kt fb ttg aku nye expression...habis kpd sape lah lg aku nk bercerita.
maybe i being too emotional, but i just can't help myself...i'm just human being. Seb baik ade blog ni...hrp xde sape bace..aku cume nk luahkan isi hati jer, perkara yg mungkin akan menguris hati org lain. Aku bkn nk protes, xd ape pun aku hrpkan dr tulisan ni...sekadar mencurahkan kesunyian aku jer...
Dulu ms belajar aku ade ramai kwn, maksud aku kwn yg sudi mendengar kisah sedih au,kt U aku ade Qilah...Qilah lah yg plg faham aku, aku mmg syg die tp sekarang masing2 dah ade family, x kan aku nk put burden kt die lg...
aku cuma nk ade org faham
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Cerita bersambung...
Lps jumpe doktor, doktor pun sahkan aku kene chicken pox...fine aku blk rmh dlm keadaan kelaparan sbb x sempat nk mkn pun dr tgh hari tadi... Trs ambik beras buat bubur since secara rasminye aku dah kena berpantang...lps solat asr, mkn n mkn ubat... Rizal pun blk x lame lps tu.... Now how about mira??? Mira blum kena chicken pox lg, tp die sdh pun diberi imunisasi ttg chicken pox.. Tp since aku pun x larat n semua org rase lbh baik mira stay ampang aku pun ok jer... Asal semua bahagia, semua gumbira... Tp lps 2 hari aku sengsorang kt rmh...sebagai seorg ibu, x salahlah aku terasa amat rindu pd mira... Tgk toys die jer aku blh terbyg die tgh main...bile rmh ni sunyi.. Terasa rindu sgt kt die. Bkn salah sape2 pun, cuma naluri aku ni buat aku terasa sunyi sangat dan rindu sgt kt mira... Tp aku x tau mcm mane nk expressikan ape aku rase. Mungkin cr aku salah tp niat aku cuma nk sampaikan betape aku rindu n nak mira ade dgn aku.... Dan disebabkan itu ramailah yg berkecik hati dgn aku... Dah la aku sakit, x dpt jumpe mira, org slah faham lagi...
Kesakitan aku ni ujian dari Allah, ape pun yg berlaku datang dari Allah... Aku ni hambanye shj...aku x penah mintak ape2 dari sape2... Kdg2 utk menjaga hati org, aku x penah tannya ape yg aku nk dalam hidup ni...Aku ikut jer, tp kdg2 itu pun masih x ckp lagi... Mungkin aku yg x faham dan perlu belajar lagi...
Kesakitan aku ni ujian dari Allah, ape pun yg berlaku datang dari Allah... Aku ni hambanye shj...aku x penah mintak ape2 dari sape2... Kdg2 utk menjaga hati org, aku x penah tannya ape yg aku nk dalam hidup ni...Aku ikut jer, tp kdg2 itu pun masih x ckp lagi... Mungkin aku yg x faham dan perlu belajar lagi...
It's not easy to be me!!
Just came back from outstation, i've to give lecture on pavement for sarawak n sabah region... Been a way about 5 days, lucky my hubby is around so mira x la sorang sgt. They stayed with my PIL since sunday and i'm back on thursday night. (26-30 june 2011). Masuk office on the 4rd of july...tonnes of work on my table and the email in my in box is so freaking me out. Have to attend DCA certification audit for civil dicipline...layan jer lah kerenah new auditor yg asik nk compare our SOP dgn Miri's SOP...lantak diela...dpt nc pun aku dh x kesah..tp aku rs something is not right with me... Rs cm sakit2 bdn, dahaga..., cm nk demam...rizal plak maybe kene naik kapal so aku ni dlm standby mode utk pindah rmh abah... Tp ape pun x ready lg. Lately mira pulak asik tdo lambat, before 3 pg tu mmg bertuahlah klau die dpt tdo...
Last day of audit, aku rs demam dah melanda...tp aku mkn panadol jer sbb mmg xde mase nk g klinik. On the 7th july kami ade icc competition, aku mmg x sempat nk contribute pape utk this competition... Tp aku one of the team member... Yelah lps outstation audit pulak, seb baik closing pg so ptg hari rabu tu aku tlg la ida ape yg patut....
Hari ni, demam lg tp demi team comitment aku kena la g jugak competition ni dgn bergantung pd panadol, the best pary was last night mira tdo around 4+ in the morning so i'm really lack of sleep. Hbs presentation aku rase lembik blk, besandar je kt kursi dlm auditorium hq... Then i realized that dah ade few spot of chicken pox on my face... Minta ida tgkkan then die pun kate that's chicken pox. Call my hubby about this and yes once again he ask me to go to the clinic. I should be at hq until 4 but i lari blk office prepare some handing over work to my TEs cause i might be on mc for a quite sometimes. Ingat sempat singgah klinik, tp x dapat... Dlm kul 3 ida dah panggil blk hq... Ngn x sembahyang lg aku g hq. Tgk result blom announce aku g la solat jap....then selangkah aku masuk surau tu, seluruh badan menggigil, semua sendi aku sakit... X mampu nk solat berdiri...then lps solat mkn panadol lg 2 biji, rs betterla sikit. Lps diorg announce group aku yg hanye dpt saguhhati tu, aku pun blah nk cr klinic kt area bkt jalil. On the blk, as expected... The jam was like crazy ni semua pasal perhimpunan bersih yg menyusahkan org. Aku pun sempat cilok jln jauh sikit tp xde road block...then sampai jugak akhirnye aku di klinik di esplanade bkt jalil... To be continue...
Last day of audit, aku rs demam dah melanda...tp aku mkn panadol jer sbb mmg xde mase nk g klinik. On the 7th july kami ade icc competition, aku mmg x sempat nk contribute pape utk this competition... Tp aku one of the team member... Yelah lps outstation audit pulak, seb baik closing pg so ptg hari rabu tu aku tlg la ida ape yg patut....
Hari ni, demam lg tp demi team comitment aku kena la g jugak competition ni dgn bergantung pd panadol, the best pary was last night mira tdo around 4+ in the morning so i'm really lack of sleep. Hbs presentation aku rase lembik blk, besandar je kt kursi dlm auditorium hq... Then i realized that dah ade few spot of chicken pox on my face... Minta ida tgkkan then die pun kate that's chicken pox. Call my hubby about this and yes once again he ask me to go to the clinic. I should be at hq until 4 but i lari blk office prepare some handing over work to my TEs cause i might be on mc for a quite sometimes. Ingat sempat singgah klinik, tp x dapat... Dlm kul 3 ida dah panggil blk hq... Ngn x sembahyang lg aku g hq. Tgk result blom announce aku g la solat jap....then selangkah aku masuk surau tu, seluruh badan menggigil, semua sendi aku sakit... X mampu nk solat berdiri...then lps solat mkn panadol lg 2 biji, rs betterla sikit. Lps diorg announce group aku yg hanye dpt saguhhati tu, aku pun blah nk cr klinic kt area bkt jalil. On the blk, as expected... The jam was like crazy ni semua pasal perhimpunan bersih yg menyusahkan org. Aku pun sempat cilok jln jauh sikit tp xde road block...then sampai jugak akhirnye aku di klinik di esplanade bkt jalil... To be continue...
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